Saturday, April 26, 2008

Am I Doing Enough?

So, here it is the last weekend before finals and I'm sitting here by myself starting a blog. So, I've already studied 6 hours today for my impending Evidence exam on Tuesday but I still feel like I need to do more. I've been working out my outline for a week and a half and studying hour upon hour for finals everyday.

But, I always have the nagging feeling in the back of my mind that everyone is doing MORE. I know they are. I know some people wake up at 7am and don't stop until 10pm. I just can't do it. I have a very active 16 month old son and live in boyfriend I have to split my time with. I can only study for so long before I miss my son and wish I were with him instead. Most other people don't have this problem. They can give themselves 100% to studying without reservations. I, however, feel like right now I'm giving 90% to school and 10% to my son. I know it basically has to be that way with finals, but does that still mean I can't feel guilty?

If I can't balance school and my son, how am I going to balance a career and a son and hopefully more children? Is it doable? I don't want to be that mom working 60 hours a week and barely seeing her kids, but I want to have a job I like too and that I have flexibility doing.

Am I asking for too much?